modern day space youth cadet sporting Zana Bayne's custom camera harness !!!

leaving for Tokyo early tomorrow morning.
going to be there until the 9th!! :>


☁ ✩☾✩ a comic about being awake ✩☾✩ ☁

i've gotten into the routine of waking up late, napping around 11pm (because i'm 2tired 2function!!), waking up at 2am or so, and not being able to fall asleep until 7am.

makes me feel superunproductive,
but going through my sketchbooks i realized that i'm not really giving myself enough credit for how productive i've actually been. it's just a matter of scanning and uploading things i guess!!
instagram is making me so lazyyyy zzzzzz zz zzzzzzzzz



i'll have a piece up for IRQ tonight, as well as some zines and babyprints for sale alongside some supersweet people!!
come check it out if you're around the area!

the show runs from 9pm-2am.




⧛⇥▷___WE WERE THE SPACE YOUTH CADETS is a small solo show i have coming up next week!

displaying a collection of documents and images
of a budding brigade
that grew up too fast
chasing the impossible edge of the expanding universe
left in cosmic loneliness
burning brightly
until the void
became too immense
and they coalesced into its infinity

Earth forgot, but they did exist

and this is my proof

Opening reception: October 19th from 7-10 pm
Show runs from: October 19th - 30th
Facebook event page: HERE
Gladstone exhibition listing: HERE

Hope to see you there, future Space Youth Cadets!!

⚡⚡⚡ (⌯͒✧ ɪ ✧⌯͒)ฅ⃛⚡⚡⚡



Yes / No

"Just ask for guidance," said Adam One. "Do an overnight Vigil. Pray for the strength to face your doubts and fears. I feel confident that a positive answer will be provided to you. You have gifts that should not be wasted. We would all welcome you as an Eve among us, I can assure you."
"All right," said Toby. "I can do that." For every Yes, she thought, there is also a No.

-The Year of the Flood, Margaret Atwood (pg 169)



i've been reading an almost unhealthy amount of manga over the past year ever since i discovered manga apps for the iPhone. i have four apps just for manga, since different ones have different series available... u_______u
i have a myanimelist account just for organizing the ones i'm currently reading/finished/plan to read. sigh THERE'S SO MUCH IT'S OVERWHELMING.
but i manage. somehow.

i just did a hefty text post about my favourites of the moment, which you can find HERE if you're interested.
the first list i made over half a year ago is HERE.

my absolute favourites out of those favourites would probably be:
anything&everything by Taiyo Matsumoto, Inio Asano, and Igarashi Daisuke. also any of the JoJo series. any one you pick will be a winner.

others i've read and reread over and over again and will probably reread soon are:

sigh so many good series out there but not enough time/$$$

♥ >:(
been pretty happy with my drawings lately CAN YOU TELL BY HOW MUCH MORE I'VE BEEN POSTING LATELY. more drawing less thinking no planning. having a lot more fun this way, and i can feel the improvement too (whether or not it actually exists is another matter, but the feeling itself is important!!) WHICH IS ALWAYS A BONUS.

working on some stuff that i'm really excited about it and i hope you will be too!
i'm awful at keeping my artstuff a secret so i'll probably reveal what it is within the next week or so. :>


✄-----a comic about haircuts--------

took notes and used them as a script for this comic. i'm pleased with how it flows :>

factual things, not so factual things, and definitely a lot of emotional things.
last week was a tough one.


\\\\\ a comic about crushes \\\\\ )

awmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan it's hard being constantly surrounded by qts everywhere!! >:T


a comic about hands ✍

i drew a lot of nice stubby hands the other day, but for some reason i couldn’t get them to look right last night.
it’s neat how one day you could be fantastic at one thing, and the next day you can’t quite get the same result. CONSTANT EBB AND FLOW Y’KNOW?
but IT’S OKAY because nobody can excel at doing something the same way all the time, and with the same amount of success. it’s hard to accept (and frustrating!!) but when you give in and just play along, things won’t seem so bad. gotta work with whatcha got!!



boyhair&hoodies&also it would be nice 2have ears that stuck out a little more

i threw out all my drawings, paintings, and projects from first/second year, as well as ALLLLLLL the lifedrawing stuff from OCAD i thought would be a good idea to save (???) in one go.
going through all of it i realized that i'm STILL really awful at acrylic painting, and drawing w/ charcoal/conté. i really don't think i'm ever gonna be decent at it. :/
5yrs of drawing&painting courses and i'm still sucky at it, maybe i should just stick to my strengths. idk i'd like to be at least comfortable with handling those mediums, but is it even worth pursuing anymore hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm


The colour of my skin is not an invitation to speak to me like this

a comic i drew for The Untitled Mag (which you can view here!) and also for myself and everyone else who's ever had to experience this kind of bullshit.

nobody deserves to be talked to like this. it's unacceptable, humiliating, and just really fuckin gross.

is there a polite way to respond to this kind of talk? because if there is, i've yet to find one, and i'm sick of just smiling, nodding, and remaining quiet as if it's fine (IT'S NOT!).


maybe 2morrow

a comic about not wanting to go out, and trying to convince yourself that it was the right choice.
we all need alone time to recharge and to shed ourselves of any gross feelings, y'know?
i always feel guilty for saying no to hanging out or sometimes even bailing, but some days i’m really not fit for human interaction. i think we all have those days, and i really believe IT’S OKAY to shut yourself off for a bit if it’ll make you feel better about Stuff.
self care is important.


☼✌✦ we don't wag our tails for ANYB☺DY ✦✌☾〮〮

so last week's challenge for POTENTIALCOMIX was to redraw a page from an existing comic, but to alter the events of one panel.
i pretty much decided on Taiyo Matsumoto's TEKKONKINKREET right away, as it's been my biggest source of inspiration since forever?? it embodies pretty much everything i've ever wanted to achieve with my own work, and it holds a really important place in my heart (well, it pretty much has a hold on all of my heart..) IT SHOULD BE REQUIRED READING.
anything of Taiyo Matsumoto's still continues to leave me in utter awe and admiration. everything he does just WORKS.
he's forever my comicshero.

i decided to start redrawing some of my favourite pages from tekkonkinkreet.
redrawing just one of his pages has already taught me A LOT and i'm hoping i can learn more about comics and drawing and just STUFF by studying his work.
doing these redraws i reallytruly feel just how far ahead and completely unreachable he is, which is REALLYSCARYTOME, but at the same time, it feels a little less impossible.
comics are intimidating, trying to do justice to the work of your alltimefavouritehero is intimidating, but it's a learning process!! i hope.

✦✦✦ 9646CATS.TUMBLR.COM ✦✦✦

if you're interested in redrawing pages from tekkonkinkreet, JOIN ME. :>
let's learn 2gether!!!

everything reads
( clicking the pages will bring you to the tumblr page, where you can see them a little larger! )

volume 1 page 18
altered panel challenge for Potential Comix
(you can see the original HERE)

volume 1 page 70
(you can see the original HERE)

be happy be happy!


a comic about a door

introducing Shack and Croze to the outside world bit by bit.
i'm slowly learning how to make comics!
(i haven't drawn this much since summer began)


♥ memories of my first tru OC ♥

comic for last week's Potential Comix theme, BUDDIES!

i've been obsessed with making OCs (original characters) for the longest time.
i'm sure i had a billion OCs before Strife Leoneharte came along, but he's the first one I really dedicated a lot of time and luv towards.

i had (and still have!!) a huge binder with an orange spine that's crammed with RPs (i rp'd with myself okay), character data entries, drawings, etc.  Strife hails from a series i called Final Destiny (because Final Fantasy was already claimed, y'know?) and it was kind of a cross between X/1999, Card Captors, and Digimon.
around the time i created him, i bought posters of Cloud and Squall, SEPARATELY, might i add.  i bought the Cloud one first, and ended up going back the next week to get Squall too because THEY ARE BOTH TOO HANDSOME.  i decided to name my character Strife Leonharte (notice the clever 'e' at the end of Leonhart to make him more unique) as a tribute (or subtle rip off?) to these two beautiful boys.  to be honest, i just couldn't decide who i liked more.

to this day i still haven't played FF XII or FF XIII.

i actually made a sequel to Final Destiny too, called Final Destiny X because i clearly did not understand how roman numerals worked.  Strife's progeny grew to become the spitting image of his father.  He was called Jet Lee Leonharte.

Jet Lee, dated August 1, 2002 (Thursday) 2:??-3:18 am

i stayed up pretty late for a twelveyearold..

i hope all the OCs i've abandoned ( it's me, not you :c ) are partying somewhere together keepin childhood alive.


summer feelingz

bangs are getting long, i want to get another haircut already.
got my undercut reshaved last week though and it's nice and short again!

i'm ready for boyclothes and autumn weather.